So Jerry and I had been "not preventing" since September and come January when nothing had happened, we started wondering why! This is when reality and the first fears set in. What is wrong with me?! Oh it must be Jerry because he is over 30. I just knew it would happen right away and we would be unsure as to why we had even thought about a baby this soon! Wrong, wrong, wrong! All wrong thoughts, but as you will learn through my journey.. there are many wrong thoughts throughout this process. You don't want them, but they find a way to creep into your head even at your most happiest times of the day!
So it is January and I am freaking out. When in the first place I wasn't "trying" for a baby anyway! Yeah right. This begins the fun and oh so confusing start of surfing the web. I still can't today say if this can be categorized under mistakes or not. With everything I read, I decided the first and most inexpensive thing to do was to chart my cycle. By putting in the first day of my cycle this wonderful ovulation calendar that was free would tell me when my most fertile days were to try and conceive! It was genius and not much to do on my part, which I liked. It was easy, free, and made me feel like I was being proactive for once. The results......................nothing.
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